As you may know from reading some of my past posts, I’ve been trying to turn my blog into a little business while I stay at home with my twins. It’s a lot of hard work, takes a lot of time, and did I mention it takes a lot of hard work? Well, it really does.
Not only do I try to write a post every day, I have to add graphics/pictures (which I’m still not very good at,) then I promote it on all my Social Media channels. I also belong to a few blog groups, where I post and interact with other bloggers and network. I do this when I first get up (before anyone else realizes I’m up,) during nap time, on my phone when there’s a break in the toddler wrestling matches that happen in the living room, and after everyone else, including my husband, goes to bed. Did I mention running a blog takes a lot of time? Yes, it really does.
Oh! I forgot. I also have to wade through a bunch of emails from people wanting me to promote their products/websites/apps/services (mostly for free) to find if they are legitimate offers or something that I can support. I also apply for writing and blogging opportunities through bigger publications and agencies.
Monday, I got a rejection (actually it was the second time) from one of the agencies I was hoping to work for. Just getting into the agency doesn’t even guarantee you paid jobs, but just gives you the chance to apply for them. It really hit me pretty hard getting the rejection because I thought I had improved my blog since the first time I applied. But, no. They still want better, bigger pictures, less graphics, and more Twitter followers.
I was ready to throw in the towel. Why am I doing all this work for no pay? I spend so much time and effort on it, and have been neglecting other mommy and wife duties.
Maybe I’m just not cut out for this, and this blog will never be a success.
Back to Basics
I let myself wallow in self-pity for a few hours, dragged myself to ballet, and danced my little heart out. I felt a little better, but then I stewed about it some more last night and this morning.
Then I realized something. I realized why I write this blog and work so hard.
It didn’t start out to be about making money. It started as a way to express myself, to educate others, and to help others. So, that is what I will continue to do.
I’m going to stop stressing about making money, pleasing giant companies and agencies, and go back to writing about what I love. I’m going to write about my twins and spread awareness about Premature Birth. I’m going to keep waging the fight against TTTS and help my friends raise money until there is a cure. I’m going to share our experiences with the March of Dimes and help us be the best Ambassador Family we can be.
I’m going to talk about my oldest son, his school experiences, and my experiences as a new mom in the school system.
I’m going to keep bringing you new families every Monday to share stories of hope and inspiration.
I’m going to continue to share my goals and healthy living plan in hopes to motivate others.
I’m even going to keep doing reviews, when they are for something I believe will benefit you, or if it has benefited me and my family. However, I’m not going to go out of my way pursuing companies and products right now. I’m also going to take a step back from promoting so much.
My kids are only going to be little for so long, and I just don’t want to miss out because mommy was on the computer or her phone.
So, I hope you’ll stick with me, even if I don’t post every single day or tweet on the hour every hour. As I was reminded last week, life is precious and short, so I want to enjoy a lot more of it.