Unmotivated was the one word that stuck in my head this morning. I’m tired, cranky, and just don’t want to do anything.
Yesterday, I went to Boot Camp and a dance class. What happened between going to bed and waking up? I’m not sure.
All last week, the weather was terrible, and I was stressed out, but I still managed to workout everyday and feel pretty good. Today, the sun is finally shining, and I just want to climb back in bed. Maybe it’s just a letdown from all that extra energy? Or maybe everything has just built up, and I’m finally feeling it.
Or maybe it’s all the diapers I’ve changed, since potty training is going nowhere. Or maybe the endless tears and whining about nothing this morning. Or the epic battle over eating breakfast.
Part of the reason I’m feeling unmotivated, is I’m a little discouraged with my fundraising efforts this year. When we were chosen as the March of Dimes Ambassador Family, I was so excited, and ready to raise a lot of money on behalf of our team. I was going to make it the best year ever.
Well, that hasn’t happened. It’s actually been really hard to find support. We only have a handful of people able to be at the March with us, and we are way behind on our goal for the year.
I’ve reached out to so many family members, and heard nothing. I completely understand not being able to donate or walk with us, but it would be nice to just get a response.
That isn’t to say that no one is supporting us. We have gotten support from my immediate family, and so many friends that feel like family. Their generosity fills my heart, and pushes away all the disappointment.
People I’ve never even met in person have donated money, and sent donations for the auction. Most of them, I do feel like I know, even if it’s only through Facebook. For them to show their support has been amazing.
So, a big THANK YOU to all of you…you know who you are.
I don’t ever want to seem ungrateful.
I also don’t ever want to forget the reason that we’re doing this. I want babies to have a healthier start in life. I want parents to be able to bring their babies home from the hospital right away, and not have a long NICU stay. I don’t want to lose more babies to prematurity every year.
I think we’re all allowed to have days where we just don’t or can’t do it all. I think writing this post, staying in my pajamas for a while, and watching some silly cartoons with the twins will be enough. It’s OK to be sad, disappointed, or even just blah for one day.
I’ll fight through the feelings, and start fresh tomorrow. I know I’ll get my motivation back to workout, to bug people for money, to make a difference. I just need a day to regroup.
What do you do when you’re having one of those days? When you’re feeling unmotivated, discouraged, or even just tired?