Different Emotions From fear to anger, it is completely normal to experience a wide range of different emotions when your baby is fighting for their life in the NICU. Strange as it may sound, the first emotion I experienced after my babies were born was relief. I was so happy that they were both born alive, and I didn't need to make any more decisions about when/if to … [Read more...]
Two Babies, Two NICU Journeys: Zepplin and Aiden
Two NICU Journeys When you have twins, you have two of everything. Unfortunately, with a premature birth, that means two NICU journeys. Even though they were born at the same gestation, my twins also had two NICU journeys that were very different from each other. They were born at different weights, which added to the difficulty of my smaller twins' journey. While they … [Read more...]
Placing Blame: A Preemie Mom’s Struggle
Blame When your baby is born premature, it's easy to blame yourself. After all, it is your body where that baby was supposed to keep growing. I couldn't understand why my twins had developed TTTS/SIUGR and why my placenta wasn't enough to feed them both. I tried to do everything right during my pregnancy, yet it turned out that being outside of my body was better for … [Read more...]
June 2018 Goals and a Look Back at May
June 2018 It's June 2018. Do you know what that means?! There is exactly one week of school left. One week!!!! How did this happen. It seems like just yesterday we were meeting the boys' teachers, touring their classroom, and waiting patiently for the bus to come on that first day of school. Which it never did. Remember that fun?! Now, at least, I can look back … [Read more...]
A Family Story and Journey through a Premature Birth
Family Story When I first received the email from Nicole about her experience with premature birth, she called the journey their "family story." I really loved that description because it is absolutely true. While the actual pregnancy and delivery directly involve the mother, a premature birth, and the circumstances surrounding it, affect the entire family. Even … [Read more...]
