There are just so many countdowns going on right now. We’re less than a week from the twins’ Nicuversary, a couple of weeks until my birthday vacation, plus it will be back-to-school in no time at all. I’m also going to be teaching an additional couple dance classes this Fall, which I’m excited about. Did I mention that we have to fit potty training, dental appointments, and school shopping in there? Plus, there’s just the business of every day life…cleaning, cooking, those huge piles of laundry. Yes, there are multiple piles.
Ugh. This mommy is a little stressed.
Sure, most of these are fun things, but the planning and preparation for many of them is what is really giving me anxiety. Will we have good weather for the twins’ party? Will they enjoy their first airplane ride? How about the other passengers…with them on board? Will Mr. B have fun in Vegas? Will the twins ever be potty trained in time for preschool? How will I be able to handle Mr. B going into 1st grade? You get the picture.
In addition to the stress and anxiety, I’ve been running pretty low on energy lately, but I think I’ve gotten to the bottom of that issue.
At the beginning of last week, I had the worst headache. It was a sharp pain in the back of my head, and it just wouldn’t get better. I finally went to the doctor on Tuesday afternoon, and he found it was from muscle tension in my neck and head. Thanks a lot stress!
I also mentioned that my skin was still a little orange from the Whole30 and all those carrots, sweet potatoes, pumpkins, etc., so my doctor decided to run some blood tests. While all my organs are functioning properly, he did find that I was very anemic. That could be another reason for the low energy (besides Big C interrupting my sleep every night.)
I’ve started taking some Iron pills, and I’m hoping that will help. I’ve got too much to do to be tired all the time.
Mother of all Countdowns
In addition to all the rest of the countdowns, there’s one more that’s been weighing on my mind pretty heavily. My birthday.
It is less than a month until I hit that HUGE milestone.
While I’m not exactly dreading it, there is a part of me that is not looking forward to that change. You know the one. Checking that new box when asked about your age. Putting a whole new number in the front. Starting a new decade of life.
How I’m not going to Meltdown
Time just continues to go faster and faster as I age…not to mention the amount of grey hairs I have to pull from my head. My goal for the next few weeks is to try to slow it down.
While I may not be able to slow actual time, I can consciously try to reflect and enjoy the things around me more. I can take the time to do things I love and spend time with the people I love, instead of rushing through one task to the next.
I’m also going to try to break down big tasks, and just do small parts at a time. I need to stop trying to do everything at once. When I make things more manageable and give myself longer deadlines, I feel less stressed.