Not always a blogger
I started being a blogger by accident.
When the twins were first born and in the hospital, I used a website to keep everyone informed of their condition. It was easier to write everything down, then to call or talk to people about them during such an emotional time.
Once we made it through the NICU, people still wanted to know how the twins were doing, and we were in isolation due to their compromised immune systems, so I started my own site. It was a way for me to connect with people (mostly relatives) and also get my own emotions out in a really therapeutic way.
What being a blogger means to me
Once I started to reach more people, and see that my words could help people, I started to focus more on my blog and my writing. I could reach parents that were in a similar situation, I could share my experience as a story of hope for those just starting on complicated pregnancy or NICU journey, and I felt like someone was really listening to what I had to say.
While it may not bring in any income (yet) being a blogger is now something that I consider my work. It’s a creative way for me to express myself, a way for me to help people I haven’t had a chance to meet, and it’s still an emotional outlet. It is something that is all my own.
Why being a blogger is hard
Of course, writing, researching, promoting, generating ideas, and creating images is all hard work…but that’s not what I’m talking about today.
I’m sharing why it’s hard for ME to be a blogger in my household.
Between breaking up fights, diaper changes, getting ready for school, feeding, laundry, working out, and everything else that comes with being a stay-at-home-mom, finding the time to be a blogger is hard.
This is next to impossible in this house. The sheer volume of the kids’ voices alone…let’s just say earplugs only help a little. Plus, someone is usually screaming, the TV is on, and/or someone (my oldest) is playing right next to me.
The only time it is quiet is before they wake (I’d have to get up at 5 am. Not happening,) IF the twins take a nap, and when all three are asleep, which doesn’t happen until after 9 pm.
Our house isn’t big. For a while, I had my desk (a fold up table from IKEA) in our bedroom. Now, I’ve moved into a room off the living room. There’s a gate separating the rooms, but that doesn’t mean the twins don’t like to stand and scream/cry while pulling on it. And my oldest simply jumps over, and uses the same room as his own personal play area.
Last night he insisted on using my computer (we still have the old one I used for 6 years) to play MindCraft. When I said I had to do some work, he through a huge tantrum, tears and all. I was so exhausted from the day, I just gave in and went to bed.
While my husband supports me, he still only views my blog as a hobby, not as my work. I don’t even think he reads my posts most of the time. I’ve also asked him to make sure and click my Top Mommy Blogs button every day, and like my Facebook posts, but that only happens when I bug him.
Plus, when I asked for 15 minutes so I could work this morning (I got up early) he said yes, but then just let the twins scream by the gate. No work being done for mommy.
I realize my kids are at an age where they need me all the time, and me being on the computer just takes away from attention that I could be giving them. They don’t understand what mommy is doing except not paying attention to them.
I also realize that I don’t make any real money, so it’s hard for my husband to see this a real work for me. However, it is important to me, and I work really hard at it.
I just have to work harder at balancing being a blogger with being a mom and wife.
Do you do it all? How do you find the balance?